Actually Block, you do love the game, which outweighs your weak points. Knowledge can be gained but only by listening and opening up your mind to the possibility that others may know more than you about a specific area.
How about just apologizing to our host and the others you may have offended and trying a clean start, which would be about the 7th attempt at that, but being an optimist I like to hope that one day you might put it all together and be a productive poster.