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GPK 01-25-2012 12:42 AM

Letter to a brother lost
 
Ed,

Dude...I don't even know where to begin. I can't believe you're gone. This cavernous void inside me aches only like losing a loved one can. I feel a bit guilty for being so full of anger and rage over these past 9 months, meanwhile you're steadily proclaiming to anyone that will listen that you're gonna be ok and beat this, even as you were being eaten alive inside. Hell, you just told me less than 1 week ago you were still gonna beat it. You were steadfast in your courage and belief. Physically, it may have reduced you to just a shell of your former self, but emotionally and spiritually you remained a giant until the very end. I wasn't there for your last breaths, but I was told it was very peaceful...just how you told me you wanted it to be.

Mom and Dad aren't taking this too well, as you can imagine. Who ever expects to bury one of their children? Mike is beyond devastated and Joni is just heartbroken. Me? A big part of me was still just enraged beyond belief that cancer has taken you at such a young age, but a big chunk of that anger melted away when I walked in and saw you laying there peacefully and pain free. I tried to stay strong like I promised you I would, but I lost it for a while

Between the people I talked to last week and the ones I was able to see tonight, you can leave this earth with your head held high, knowing that you made a difference in the lives of many people. Clearly, your smile was infectious and your love was contagious.

I promise to keep an eye on Christine. You did a great job in helping to raise her and you have played a huge part in shaping and molding her into the wonderful young woman she is today.

I don't know if this feeling of emptiness will ever go away. I can't imagine that it will be. None of this feels real though. I keep thinking I'm gonna wake up tomorrow and go see you at the hospital again...

Thank you. Thank you for being an amazing person and an even better brother. I will forever carry you in my heart.

I love you and miss you already.

Little Brother.

docicu3 01-25-2012 03:13 AM

Kev

I am beyond sorry for your loss. Your love and loyalty for your brother pours out of your words with such deep respect and honesty it is impossible not to feel the sting of the moment.

Please accept my most heart felt sympathy during this impossibly difficult time. Your family is immensely fortunate to have a guy like yourself help put the focus of the next few days on the positive power of family and the special bond you obviously feel for one another.

Sincerely

Dave

ninetoone 01-25-2012 04:54 AM

Sorry Kev.

Kasept 01-25-2012 05:14 AM

Kev..

Saddened to read of your brother's passing. What a beautiful tribute to him. Heartfelt condolences to you and the O'Bey family.

3kings 01-25-2012 06:51 AM

Kev,
Sorry to hear of your terrible loss. My prayers are with you and your family during this difficult time.

Tom

Coach Pants 01-25-2012 06:52 AM

My condolences, Kev.

trackrat59 01-25-2012 07:41 AM

Kevie:

I'm very sorry about the loss of your brother. I wish I could write something here that will make you feel a bit better but I know there are no such words. Not right now anyway. Please know that I'm thinking about you and your family.

Hang in and know that we are here for you in spirit.

GBBob 01-25-2012 07:43 AM

Kev...I'm so sorry. Condolences to all of your family on this tragedy. Your bro' would be very proud of you for writing such an honest letter.

herkhorse 01-25-2012 07:56 AM

Kev, I'm so sorry. My heart goes out to you and your family.

booner 01-25-2012 08:25 AM

My condolences to you and your family.

Patrick333 01-25-2012 09:01 AM

Our condolences to you and to your family.

dagolfer33 01-25-2012 11:03 AM

:(Remember the good times.

Ocala Mike 01-25-2012 11:19 AM

Letter to a brother lost
 
So sorry for your loss. Your words remind me of when my older brother passed at a relatively young age, and I wished I could have been as expressive as you.


Ocala Mike

Riot 01-25-2012 12:44 PM

Your tribute to your brother was beautiful and moving. I'm so sorry for your family's loss.

Clip-Clop 01-25-2012 02:03 PM

Thanks for sharing what so many of us are forced to feel and unwilling to express. Condolences.

GPK 01-25-2012 05:09 PM

Thanks to everyone for the thoughts and prayers during this difficult and emotional time for my family. The outpouring of love I feel from everyone here has, and will remain, a source of comfort in the coming days.

I can only speak for the emptiness and the void that I feel inside, so I know that I can't even begin describe or pretend to feel what my Mom and Dad are experiencing. To witness the upheaval of emotions they have displayed over the past 24 hours is an experience I wish on no one. My heart aches for them so bad.

With heartfelt gratitude,

GPK

my miss storm cat 01-25-2012 06:29 PM

I'm so sorry, Kev.

My thoughts are with you and with your entire family.

NTamm1215 01-25-2012 07:00 PM

My condolences to you and your family. This letter was a wonderful tribute.

geeker2 01-25-2012 09:00 PM

Kev

So sorry for your loss.

Rileyoriley 01-25-2012 10:00 PM

Very sorry to hear about your brother Kev. Stay strong.


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